Forbidden Love

Teachers nowadays exist in different age, some are too old while some are too young but whatever it takes after class teachers can be our "barkada". Why I mention it? Its because that is the flow of the story.

Teachers is our Mentor. They should be treated with high respect and We all know that Being in love to your teacher is a big NO NO. bawal na bawal. Student-teacher relationships are considered largely unacceptable in our society.

But I must admit that I fell in love to my teacher.

At first I don't have any interest about him. I just enjoyed the way he teach. I love everything about him - his unfathomable intelligence, his sweetness, silliness, liveliness, and overall loveliness. He's ridiculously smart but not patronizing; his mischievous, sweet smile has the ability to melt everyones heart, his eyes are so keenly searching and inquisitive yet at the same time wholly empathetic. Everything about him is just absolutely endearing. In short I adore him as my teacher.

Everybody loves him. He's rare. haha..
He's young, and absolutely open minded that's why every student loves him.

According to him, he has a girlfriend. I don't know whats the sense of saying it in our class, yet everyone seems not so interested. haha.. I'm not really sure but If u'll ask me, at that moment I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT HIS STATUS. ;) ahaha.. The whole time he was saying it Im saying this in my mind "Anu ba to? As if nman interesado kme. Part ba nn Mapeh to?" unfortunately at that moment Im one of those students who doesn't really care about his personal life, All I want is to listen to his intelligence ideas and to learned from him.

After a few days, He began teaching and finally Catch up the hearts of those students because of his amazing ideas. I must admit Im one of those students na naging excited sa mga pinagssbe nea. haha.. Then that's somehow the start of the closure.

I'm a varsity Player, and at that time wla kming adviser so THEY ASKED him if he can handle and manage us, In fact he looks so interested. haha.. So One day we have our training, and he's there. He's just watching us, and I was shocked when he asked us about our personal life, what I'm trying to say is about our love life. Nung una bumubulong pa ko sa sarili ko "Pake m nman sa buhay ko?" haha.. He asked me but I refuse to answer coz definitely I don't have any And I still love my past. Di ko cngot pero tumtwa nln ako, and kung may cnbe man ako in A nice way nman. Dahil nga di ko cnagot he asked my bestfriend kung cno, and my bestfriend just laugh too..

After the training, He invite us to have lunch. Treat nya daw that's why without second thought sumama kme. haha.. After lunch, I feel comfortable to him. That's why while walking I tell him the FUCKING STORY OF MY LOVELIFE. after that nanahimik na ko. and I was absolutely shocked nung cnbe nia skn to..

"Lex, wag kang sisimangot nn ganyan. Kac ang taray mo tngnan, parang abot langit yung katarayan mo."

Don't know what to say, That's why I just smiled at him. ;)

After a few days we became Friends. And one time while walking in the patio nasalubong ko sya, nakatayo ata sya nun sa may pinto and the he asked me..

"Anu bng number mo? Bat di ka nagrreply?" "Ha? Naka smart po ako e." "Yun nga sa smart kta tnex ee.." "Aa.. tlga? wla akung nrrcv.. hehe."

Undenial queen! haha.. I recv his text messages but I just Ignored it.

The day after that, I recv a text message again from him. And I Ignored it again.
When Free time comes he asked me again with the same question and I answered him with the same answer. haha..

And for his third attempt na sbi ko to sa srili ko..

"Nako, eto na nman. Mareplyan na nga, wala na kung maicp na iddhilan kng bkit di ako nkkpgreply e.."

So That's it. Pero bbhira ko lan sya replyan duh' ang mahal kaya smart ako globe sya.

Then One day in class, he share again his personal when I heard it this thoughts came to my mind "Ano ba to Current Events?? Kylangn tlga updated kame?" but After I heard it parang naapektuhan ako sknya, bgla kung nrmdman ung sakit na nrmdman nea. Unfortunately, nakipag break pala yung girlfriend nya sknya, with her unacceptable reason. So, khit di ako interesado sa knyang mga personal na buhay, sa puntong yun na nalungkot ako para sknya.

And after A few weeks, I rcv text messages again. Text message like this..

"Kaen kna po." "Magandang gabi po."

This sounds simple to me, kay I text him..

"Ui. wag ka po mag sayang nn Extra load skn. hehe.."

Then I got this reply..

"Wala namng nssyang sa tulad mo."

after that di ko na nreplyan. haha..

Then, I transfer to globe, not because of him but because my reason to stay to that network was gone. So that's the start. Nagkakatex kame..

He asked me kng bkit daw ako nkipag break sa Recent kng ex, And I answered this..

"E, kac sbrang sweet ayoko nn Sbrang sweet.haha"

At natawa tlga ako sa sgot nya..

"Ay, edi hndi pala tau pwede?"

hahaha.. kaya nman after our class biniro ko sya sbe ko "Syang di pla tau pde.." at ayun na nga nging close na kme.. Tinulungan ko ata sya mag move on. Im not sure e.

Then, One night nagulat nlang ako tinawagan nea ko. Don't know why akala ko nman may emergency kaya cngot ko kgad. At ayun yun nga.. wla lan pla haha.. We talked until 3 am and that was so so so.. ewan.

One of our conversation includes our personal life, dahil nga kumportable na ko sknya nkkapag kwento na ko. Ayun naalala ko nung cnbe nea to..

"Naka prepaid ako, ok lan ikaw nman ang kausap ko." -PANIWALANG PANIWALA AKO NA NKA PREPAID SYA KAC NGA BGO AKO SA GLOBE DI KO ALM NA MAY UNYT PALA. HAHAHA.. "Panu kung Namatay ako at ang tanging paraan lang para mabuhay ako e ang mahalin mo ko." - SPEECHLESS AKO JAN. :l "Meron nga akung gsto ngaun e, kaso ayaw nyang maniwala na gsto ko sya." -NAGPANGGAP NA INOSENTE AT TNANUNG KO KNG CNU YUN. "Alam mo seloso akung tao, gsto ko pag akin akin lan." -AFTER KO MAG KWENTO ABOUT MY PAST YAN YUNG CNBE NEA. "Panu kung Ligawan kita?" -TAWA LAN. "ADIK KB?" LGI KNG SAGOT. "Hindi ko ibaba to hanggat di mo ko pnpyagan mahalin ka." -KINBUKASAN KAC MERUN KMING CONTEST NA MAGCCMULA NN 8 AM KAYA NGPPAALAM NA KO KASO AYAW NEA.

Ask me how that conversation end. It ends like this, nalobat yung phone ko, at after nun hndi ko na bnuksan. haha.. Sleepyhead knocks me to sleep.

When I woke up, I found out this is in my inbox.

"Hala, di na ko mkatawag. Next question pa nman ako."

Wala lan bat ba. ahha.. ayun.

Then after that, nagtuloy2 na un. Lagi kming mag kausap, minsan umaabot tlga nn 6am. Buti nga hndi ak0 tnutulugan nun sa tex e. haha!

Until, we bcame soo much close.

I purposefully try to go where I know I will find him. I ask him questions when I already understand the answer just to be near him and to hear him speak and to gaze into his exquisitely eyes. I can't focus when he's near me. Whenever we make eye contact I feel like we are communicating tacitly, exchanging our feelings.

The good thing is that my grade in his class is really high, since I want to impress him and all that.

And that's the start. ;))